It only hurts when I breathe

10 months ago

A part of me feels gone

so, Caitie left on Monday, she is my oldest daughter, that I let my sister adopt at 7 months old. She grew up in Texas, I live in Cali, and I never got to see her much. I wish in a way she didn’t know I was her Mom. It puts this whole awkwardness…not for me, but for her. and I feel like this kid just don’t dig me. I don’t know what else I could possibly do to let her know how I feel. I miss my Mom so much, and she has 2 moms that love her, but she doesn’t want anything to do with me as far as that goes. I feel she is very judgemental of me, my lifestyle, my choices and how I have raised her sister. I wish she just knew that everytime she leaves I lose a piece of my heart…..

Notes: 3587 / 10 months ago from rosettes (originally from yanilavigne)

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The Streets of San Francisco

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film-grain:

(by Anna Emilia Laitinen)

1 year ago

To Good?

It seems this year so far has been pretty amazing. My oldest daughter, that was taken from me at birth, has come home. She is almost 20 now, and really a neat kid. I feel like I have been given a second chance with her. I feel like the whole that has been in my heart for 19 years is now filled. But I am cautious, I am afraid she will leave. I know some day she will, but for now I just want her to stay. My 15 year old and her together, I look at them, and my heart melts. My life is complete.

I still hella miss you Mom, but somehow the timing of all this is perfect. It was time…you would be proud of me. Love you Mom….Your daughter Catherine Ann

Notes: 623 / 1 year ago from rosettes (originally from dirtyprettything)